We all have different beliefs about faith or some sort of higher power or …. whoever…. This week I have learned more about this. I have placed my faith in this loom that I built. In trying to work through my feelings and emotions about this issue/problem/situation that really scared the crap out of me, I have been asking my new loom for help. Some of you will understand this right away and some of you will think this sounds like new-age-y junk, and some might not get it at all.
I am getting it though. I started this project feeling pretty bad and every time I was obsessing about it, I would pick up this loom. I focused my thoughts on what I was doing, and did form some questions in my mind and directed them into the weaving.
I found that the further up the strings I progressed, the better I was feeling. And about half way through, I heard that little voice in my head say to me, very clearly and in these exact words “You will be fine, just not right now.” I am not all the way through it yet, but I am feeling a lot better. And the weaving is not done yet. I will keep going until I feel like I don’t need to do this anymore.
I often find that when you need to work on a problem, or find a solution, to either something fairly practical, like how to put something together, or something more personal, like how to fix that problem, I find that if you give your brain something else to do, something that it already knows how to do without really thinking about it, it frees it up to go work on your other thing without you interfering at all. It just sort of percolates under the surface while you think you are doing something else, it is really do the hard work for you, and without you getting in the way. I am convinced that this is why I often have “Ah Ha moments” when I am washing my hair. Other people call them “2 am moments” when they wake up with their problem solved. While you are doing something completely mundane and rote, your brain has been churning along and working through things, often in spite of you.
I think this is what the loom is doing. No, I don’t think this is a magical loom with some sort of special powers, I think it is just the belief that I have put into it. It could really be anything. It could be knitting, it could be bike riding, it could even be mowing the lawn. If you tell yourself, “by the time I am done with this, I will have figured that out”, if you believe that strongly enough, then I think you will succeed. So maybe it is a magical loom?
On a much lighter note, what have I been working on this week? I have turned the heels on both of my squirrel socks and am onto the gussett of one. Why is this a big deal? Because it has been in the 90’s and incredibly humid this week. How fitting that the Summer Solstice would be the hottest day we have had so far. In Maine, 90’s and humid is about as bad as it gets. (Unless it is 20′ and the wind is howling or it is sleeting and freezing rain, that is the other kind of weather we get here.) It makes you want to lie on the bed in front of the fan and not move. While you are lying there, not moving a muscle, trying not to even breath to much, sweat is rolling off of you. We don’t like this kind of weather here. I might have mentioned this before. Yes, I’m sure I did. So instead of just waiting it out, or perhaps finding someplace to go swimming, I have been knitting. On socks. Wool socks. Wool socks that I will not even think about wearing until October. I have not really wanted to knit on these socks for weeks now, but now that it is 90′, gee, what a great time to really dive into them. I’ll just go with it, I guess.
Oh….and I am participating in my very first fiber swap with some folks on ravelry. I’m really excited about this. Everyone involved puts together a box of “goodies” from their stash and sends it to the person that was chosen for them. There was a list of questions that each person answered so you could tailor your box to what that person might like. This sounds like so much fun to me. To receive a box of yarn and fiber in the mail is just about as good as it gets for a geek like me. Some of you have probably done this loads of times, but I am just figuring out about stuff like this. Can’t wait to see who I got and put a box together. I already have a bunch of ideas.